The week of May 6th – 10th was an interesting, difficult, challenging and very long week. I am calling this post “the silent enemy” because we really do have a silent enemy that we can’t see or hear, but we know he is real because the Bible says, 1 Peter 5:8, “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” But I’ll come back to that.
The silent enemy that I am talking about is brain seizures and strokes. These are illnesses that are hard to know if they are happening. The Mayo Clinic describes a Focal Seizure as:
Focal seizures result from abnormal electrical activity in one area of your brain. Focal seizures can occur with or without loss of consciousness:
- Focal seizures with impaired awareness. These seizures involve a change or loss of consciousness or awareness. You may stare into space and not respond normally to your environment or perform repetitive movements, such as hand rubbing, chewing, swallowing or walking in circles.
- Focal seizures without loss of consciousness. These seizures may alter emotions or change the way things look, smell, feel, taste or sound, but you don’t lose consciousness. These seizures may also result in the involuntary jerking of a body part, such as an arm or leg, and spontaneous sensory symptoms such as tingling, dizziness and flashing lights.
When you have brain cancer this is one of the possible symptoms of a brain seizure. You stare off into space aware, but not aware for a moment in time. It’s scary to think that during that one or two minutes you don’t know what is going on with that person and they can’t control it. I imagine that they feel trapped in their own minds for that brief time that the seizure takes place.
This week was challenging for Amy, she hasn’t started the chemo yet, but there are other symptoms that she battles daily. She is in good spirits, her trust is in the Lord that He will strengthen her and hopefully heal her if that is his plan.
This past week reminder me of Amy’s great aunt that we went to see in northern Maine not to long after our first daughter was born. It was a very long drive, but worth seeing the ocean and family. She was well into her late 70’s at the time and as I recall we were sitting on the couch talking with her. Over a short time through that conversation we noticed that she was having a hard to speaking, seeming confused, it off and on. We soon realized that something was very wrong, but didn’t know what it was. So, we called 911 and she was admitted to the hospital. She was having mini strokes. It was silent and very hard to know that was happening. It’s silent and scary.
The Complex “Brain”
The human brain is a very complex part of our bodies. For all the amazing technology that we have to try and understand the human brain and recreate the brain through artificial intelligence, we don’t understand.
This is one of those parts of our bodies and life that is to great and to marvelous to understand 100%, just as Psalm 131 says. Why is it to to great, because we are made in the image of God. We can’t recreate that no matter how hard we try. The brain is made just the way God designed it to be. It’s not that we can’t understand any of it, but I don’t think we will ever completely 100% understand what God designed and recreate.
So, on that note, I rest in God. When I was younger I wanted to know everything there was to this world. But as I grow older, I am content knowing what God teaches me through life lessons and His Word.
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