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Feb 8, 2019: Kids In School

Week number two with kids in school down. I had this novel idea when the kids were in school that I would be getter more done at home and at work. Well, that ship sailed and it’s just not the case. That’s okay, God is sovereign and it is all working out.

This week has flown by and time seems to move at breakneck speed right now. This week was a good week. Amy got to see the Neuro doc this week, everything is looking good after the surgery. Praise God for that.
We also got started with the treatment process this week. The first step in treating brain cancer is the mind mapping and making of the facemask. They do another CAT scan and compare that to the most recent MRI. With that info, they can then map out exactly where the tumor is and where to shoot the radiation beams.

It is amazing that they can get very, very precise in where they put the radiation now. Amy’s tumor is a diffused Astrocytoma which means it is more like a spider web of tumor that has slowly grown over a long time.
I have been asked, “Did we notice anything before all this?” The answer is no, brain cancer is a silent killer! There were no real symptoms that didn’t seem like everyday stuff, like a headache one in a while. It wasn’t really until the past 6 months that some symptoms starting showing up. Even then, it wasn’t until the last 4 months that major symptoms were present that we thought were related to a B12 deficiency. She tested positive for that, so we that that was the cause of all the brain symptoms back in Oct/Nov. We knew something was wrong when the B12 supplements were not really helping. That’s when we went to the ER. The symptoms are similar to someone that has had a stroke. If you are not trained to know what to look for, it doesn’t seem like anything is really happening.

The Mask

Here’s what it looks like.
The reason for a mask is to keep the head in the exact same spot so they treat cancer and not the good parts of the brain. It is made out of plastic that the heat in water and press against your face. It does leave mesh marks for a little while afterward, but they go away.

This is not her mask, but looks almost the same.

I Praise God that just in the past 30 days, I have seen such an improvement from the drugs to reduce swelling and control seizures. It feels like my wife is coming back to me. Her energy is up and she is in good spirits. The hard road is just yet to come. She starts radiation treatment next week and that is going to take a toll on her.

Nutrition and Treatments

One of the biggest challenges is helping someone that is sick get good food and nutrition and keep their weight and energy up. Right now I am finding that juicing, making smoothies and meals are helping Amy. Her weight is up which helps her to be ready for the treatments.

Standard protocol for her is 28 treatments of radiation over the next 5-6 weeks every day Mon-Fri. This is going to be a lot of driving and time to and from the hospital.

We are not equipped
There is nothing on this earth that can prepare you for battling cancer as the person or as a husband of wife helping the one you love to walk through it. That is a thought that I have had over the past month. I don’t dwell to much on it, but it does lead me to our Savior. He is able and does help us daily walk this path to have the strength, energy, and trust that everything is going to be okay. It’s not a nieve approach, but a hopeful approach (that we’re going to be okay).

How can we have hope in the face of death?

This is a hard question. Our answer is simple but complex. We are Christians. Does that make us perfect, NO! We are so far from perfect it’s crazy. Does it mean that we are always going to do the right thing, NO! That’s okay, why? Because it is not about living perfectly or always doing the right thing. It’s not about following a set of rules that make you feel like a good person. The reality is we are not good, God say that we are not good.

But we are all like an unclean thing, and all of our righteousnesses are like filthy rags” (Isa. 64:6). Isaiah the prophet summed up the wretched state into which the covenant people of God had sunk. … But God did not esteem their righteousness to be anything but pollution.

Biblical Context

This larger biblical context can provide the proper framework for understanding the intent of passages like Isaiah 64:6. The “filthy rags” in this passage does not refer to the Spirit-wrought works of the regenerate, but the outward religious grandstanding of the wicked (see Isaiah 58). This understanding allows John Piper to say the following:

It is terribly confusing when people say that the only righteousness that has any value is the imputed righteousness of Christ. I agree that justification is not grounded on any of our righteousness, but only the righteousness of Christ imputed to us. But sometimes people are careless and speak disparagingly of all human righteousness as if there were no such thing that pleased God. They often cite Isaiah 64:6, which says our righteousness is as filthy rags. . . . [But] when my sons do what I tell them to do—I do not call their obedience “filthy rags” even if it is not perfect. Neither does God. All the more because he himself is “working in us that which is pleasing in his sight” (Hebrews 13:21). He does not call his own, Spirit-wrought fruit, “rags.” (Future Grace, 151-152).

It is about Grace!

We are Christians because God gives us His mighty Grace and saved us. Jesus, says that He is the way, the thruth and life, no one comes to Father, except through Jesus. How can he state that? I have attached a video about this.

Our hope and trust is in Him. He gives us grace, love, forgiveness and hope every day.

We want to thank everyone that has helped us through donations, meals, cards and messages. This has alterted the course of our lives forever, but we are taking it one day at a time and are so thankful for everything we have.

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I am the husband of my wife Amy for the 15+ years. Thankful to be a father to several wonderful children and humbly trying to live my life to glorify Christ as my Lord and Savior.
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